Getting out the hammer and beating tacks to distract myself...............

Sometimes as saintly as ones friends are , you do feel that your grief is so large that it is blocking the sun, and that they must be bored of hearing how much your heart aches, how deep your grief is and how as hard as you try nothing seems to make it less so.

I guess that those who are not grieving for a child mean well when they say 'it will get easier', personally I dont think it gets easier, I think you adapt yourself so that the constant pain does not overwhelm you, that you try harder to see happiness, and to enjoy as much of life as you possibly can, as who knows what tomorrow may hold, and I guess ultimately we are all thankful for the blessings we do have in our lives.


Yesterday was GCSE results day, children up and down the Country were finding out their grades, as these will influence the next stage in their life, yet another milestone to be passed, it seems unreal that my youngest would have been one of them..........yet she never had great plans, and sometimes I do feel she was alittle like Beth in Little women, she always spoke of being at home,she had no great plans to travel the world or take a high powered job, she was kind, gentle, loving and could be very excited, noisy and funny, I miss all these aspects of who she was.......but she will always continue to be a huge part of who I am.

Hammered thumb!

My favorite tools , never under estimate the uses for a staple gun and hammer.

Butterfly fabric in Daisy's honour.

So especially on these days I need to get busy and do something positive to distract myself, not having quite finished reorganising all the 'craft' that has been taking over my diningroom, I decided to find my trusty staple gun and hammer and have abit of hammer therapy, which attractive results ..bar my thumb, which I forgot to move, just the once .

And now as the weather would seem to have changed, I will  think about sanding down my newly acquired pine drawers ready for painting, they will make excellent pattern storage and are a perfect fit for my bookcase, so I best get to it ..........